2004-04-22 - 8:35 p.m.
Nearing the end. You believe that?
Yes, yes, I know. It’s been a while. Not that anyone but me really notices, but whatever.
It’s almost the end of the year. So strange, that the school year passed so quickly. It seems like just yesterday I was up at 9 am, freaking out because I had just moved to this new, weird city and I knew no one. And here I am, getting ready to leave. Graduation is in 2 weeks; I don’t really graduate, but we do walk in the ceremony, and it’s a kind of closure. Then we all head off in different directions (read: New York and LA) to do our internships, then we’re finally finished in August.
It’s so WEIRD.
A week ago, I was kind of waffling. My confidence had completely waned; the internship I wanted fell through, and I thought I’d be stuck in Baltimore doing a crappy internship and sending out my resume all summer. Then my department chair made a call, and I got a GREAT internship—at least, it’s 90% set. That’s the thing about the timing—everyone in television is off at the NAB conference in Vegas, so I have to be patient. And I have been, as much as possible. I’ll call him tomorrow, try to get this thing settled. My department chair seemed to think it was; if it’s not, he can make a phone call and get me another internship. Heh.
I also might have a place to live in New York. My cousin Donna is moving in with her boyfriend in June, so the timing is just about perfect. If it’s OK with her landlord. And if I can afford it. If the internship is part-time, I’ll get a job. I wish I could tend bar, because that would be perfect, but… Eh. Too much thinking ahead.
I never thought I’d live in New York. I like New York, but only for a weekend or so. However, since most roads in cable television lead to NYC, I started thinking about it. And the idea is pretty nice to me. Lots of people, little grocery stores, fresh flowers and good produce, being able to get lychees… Very appealing. I also like the idea of a commute that doesn’t involve my car. And walking to places. And meeting new people. And being able to meet my cousins for dinner or drinks, and being able to get on a fancy bus and be in Baltimore in 3 hours for little money. And, during the summer while I still have my student ID, I like the idea of student theater discounts. I like the idea of being able to get Vietnamese and Greek and decent cheap sushi. I also have some friends there already; my friend Eric, who I grew up with, is there, and Todd’s there, and I’m sure half of my class will be there. So that’s OK.
So, we’ll see how I do. Like I said, it’s only 90% right now, but hopefully it will be 100% before long. However, there are so many bright sides here: I have a 90%, which is better than a 10%. Once I’m in New York, I’m in a great position to get a good job. I know exactly what I want to do, which is a HUGE deal in this business. I might have an apartment, and if I don’t, I can stay with Eric for a bit until I do. No worries.
No. Worries. Unbelievable. And I actually believe that. I’m not freaking out! I’m not anxious! This is a revelation.
In other news, tomorrow night is the big, end-of-year semi-formal. As part of the master’s association, I’m helping to organize it. So I have to be there early. BUT! I got a new dress. And I have new shoes. Pink ones! I will look faaaaaabulous. And I have my eye on a classmate, so… we’ll see. I might be giving him a ride to the party, too. Sigh…
This always happens to me—I start things right before the end of the line. But that’s OK now, because it would do me good to get a little attention before we all leave. This particular classmate is kind of an odd one—my attraction to him surprises me. He’s kind of uptight, but he’s a sweet guy. I thought I might kind of like him about a month ago, but last week he came into class all scruffy, with five o’clock shadow and his hair messed up, and I nearly swooned. It’s been so long since I’ve felt anything like that. I mean, this was straight up LUST, seeping out of my pores. So we’ll see. Wish me luck.
