2003-12-14 - 11:55 p.m.
How my graduate education went to hell in five minutes
Just when things were starting not to suck, they started sucking again. And HARD. And unexpectedly, and in the worst way.
I was accused of plagiarism.
Correction: I was accused of considering plagiarism. The person who accused me has no proof of anything— not a single fucking piece of fucking paper to back up his accusation— and I’m suffering for it. Bastard. Motherfuckingcocksuckingpissantbastard.
You see, I got this email. And it said that he had HEARD that I was planning to plagiarize him by using his research proposal in my PhD applications. Rather than calling me, or even emailing to say, “Is this true?” he continued with the assumption that it WAS true and wrote some pretty nasty things. I read this. I burst into tears. I started hyperventilating. It wasn’t pretty.
This guy has had it in for me for a while. I can’t imagine who told him what to make him think that I was going to rip him off. I may not be the smartest of the bunch, but I sure as hell am pretty far from stupid. I go through academia trusting my professors and expecting only the best; I always expect to get what I work for and what I deserve, and I can’t even imagine what it would be like to play a dirty game. I never intended to use his fucking proposal. I don’t even like it! I like the general topic that he’s studying, but where in the hell is it written that two people can’t study the same general subject?
He’s a member of the faculty. Not a high-ranking one, but still an instructor. So what does that mean? That means that he sent a horrible, accusatory, NEGLIGENT email to an innocent student. And when that student backed herself up, he responded with “OK”, but no apology. Motherfuckingcockfacepieceofshitasshole.
I emailed my professor. I emailed my advisor. I want an apology. I want this on record. I want the whole school to realize that he is a piece of shit who, for some reason, thinks it’s OK to treat students this way. A phone call would have done it, you know. Would have saved everyone a whole lot of grief. And if he thinks that I’m going to shrug this off or let it slide with him? He’s got another think coming. You can’t accuse an honest person of egregious dishonesty and get away with it. That is one hell of a serious charge—he accused me of academic dishonesty! What kind of bullshit is that? With nothing on paper to back up is own ridiculous assumptions??? That is some SERIOUS irresponsible bullshit.
I am honest.
I am intelligent.
I don’t use other people’s work and pass it off as my own.
I ask questions out of curiosity and a desire to obtain information.
I am not underhanded.
I am a decent person.
I am a nice person.
I am a good student.
I have more integrity in my left pinkie than some guys have in their left ball sacs.
Stay tuned.
