2003-10-26 - 8:36 p.m.
I hate everyone. It's not personal.
Two entries in one day. I must be high.
Or hormonal.
Where the FUCK do people get off, thinking they can just start spouting their opinions on something without thinking that it might upset someone who is involved in that something? And they KNOW THIS. Perhaps I’m not making myself clear. *ahem* I had another fucking argument this morning with someone who decided that it’s OK to say, “TV sucks, TV is evil,” despite the fact that he is well aware that, hello? I’m studying TV. This is my life. And yeah, I’m going to get personally involved in this discussion. I asked him to drop it. He KEPT GOING. Then he came over and was like, “Don’t take it so seriously… I’d like to have a discussion with you later… blah blah…” I responded, “I do take it seriously… You bothered me… You offended me… This is inappropriate yet you keep going at it…” and he turned it around on me. I had to say to him, “You don’t seem to care that you bothered me.” “But I do!” “Oh? I haven’t once heard you say you’re sorry for the simple fact that you offended me, regardless of how you think you shouldn’t have.” “Well, I’m saying that I apologize”, etc., etc. Whatever. Perhaps I’m sensitive about it. OK, I’m very sensitive about. But a) don’t start spouting shit at the beginning of a social gathering, and b) if you can’t respect what other people study, then what the fuck are you doing in a communications school? Shithead. And dude, grow up. If someone is upset, don’t turn it around and blame that person for getting upset. Apologize because that person is upset, if for nothing else than you upset that person. Got it?
Sigh…
Oh, and after we all went apple picking in the damn rain, I found out that Photo Crush Boy is kind of seeing someone. I found this out from KJ. I had suspected it, but she questioned the girl in, uh, question, and that girl told KJ that something was going on but it’s a “long story”. Sigh again.
I am so tired of being third and fourth best. I am tired of being 8th in line. I am tired of being attracted to guys, thinking there’s a chance, then finding out that there isn’t. I am tired of being the “ugly friend”. I am tired of being the, “She’s awesome, but date her? No way, man. She’s crazy, she’s funny-looking, and besides, she’s like my sister.” This is very high school-ish, of course, but I have PMS, so back the fuck off and let me have my whine. And my cookie!
Oh, wait. It’s not PMS anymore. Grrrrrrrrrreat.
