2003-08-11 - 5:14 p.m.
Break!
I know, I know. It’s been a while. Not much has happened, though. The summer term is over and I’m now on break. I’ve missed break. I finished out the semester reasonably well, but I’m not happy with my performance. I’m excusing myself because it’s been a long time since I had to do this stuff, but all excuses are over after the third week of classes. I need to do well, not because everyone else is doing well, but because I want it. I set that goal for myself, and I intend to reach it.
So, the last couple of days have been OK. Everyone’s skipped town. I skip town myself tomorrow for NYC, which will be fun—I’ll see some of my family on Wednesday, and I’ll see teats on Thursday. It’ll be good to see my family, and good to see him. We have a good time.
The only problem I’m having with break is that I’m spending money like water. I don’t know if that’s because I have the time to shop now or I’m just being stupid. I got my security deposit back from my last apartment (they gave me the whole thing, despite the fact that I left furniture and trash in the place, so I was surprised) and the idea of having extra money has been kind of a buffer, even though I know on an intellectual level that I need that money for rent and food. I haven’t been that spendthrift—I’d hardly call a trip to Target and some stamps and some t-shirts spendthrift. But I still feel strange about it.
I need a job.
My weight has been becoming an issue now too. I got rid of the little beer belly and the extra rolls I had, but I’ve had moments of being really concerned. It’s all the eating out and the drinking, which needs to stop. I also have to get back to exercising more. I went to the pool once, but my goggles broke and I had finals, then I got my period. I’ll go again—I bought new goggles today, and I’ll have free days once classes start. I’ve also managed my diet a little better. *cough*except for the Mike’s and buffalo wings for dinner*cough*
So, all is OK. I really wish M were around, though. He’d been acting all weird before break, not just to me, then he left a day early for home. I wish he were around so we could both relax and spend some time together. Not dating time, mind you, just time where we don’t have to worry about being found out. The whole gossip thing bothers him so much that he sometimes comes off as rude to me, and that sucks. KJ is pissed at him, too. His mysterious thing is getting on her nerves, and she says she’s tired of him talking shit. I don’t know what to think about that. I think we all need to cool down a lot.
So, that’s life. I’ll have a better report when I get back from the City.
