2003-07-11 - 5:33 p.m.
Sex and Studying
OK, so I haven’t updated for a while. That’s been understandable, I guess—it’s been busy around here. At the moment, I’m taking a study break. I have an exam on Monday. I’m slightly freaked, but it’s not so bad. I’m pretty sure I’ll be OK.
Things with M are coming along. He hasn’t been over since last Monday, but I now have his number and we’ve established that we’re both interested in continuing this, whatever it is. As far as I’m concerned, it’s just sex. We’re friendly, and I’m sure we’ll be friends, and right now we’re friends with benefits. That’s just fine with me. Too much studying, you know—not a lot of time for dating.
School is good. Forget that, school is GREAT. I’m very pleased with my decision so far. I am, however, running into a lot of unexpected obstacles. For one, there’s the studying. I haven’t studied in three years. I haven’t taken a test in three years. I’m used to going home at the end of the day and just crashing, but obviously I can’t do that now. This problem is, apparently, pretty common among the “older” students in my program. We all have to get back into the rhythm, which is slower going than expected.
Then there’s the snobbery. It’s everywhere. I’m guilty of it myself, sometimes. There are people in my program just out of undergrad, and they think they’re hot shit and that they know everything, and they don’t. They get all weird around me and some of the other older students, like they’re cooler than we are. Which is OK, because, you know, they suck. And then, of course, there’s the rest of us, who think we’re smarter and better-connected and better-adjusted because we’ve already been “in the real world”. We suck too, but hey, we have fun together.
One girl even dropped out of our program. Dropped out. After less than a week. She was in my group, too. We shot some of her footage on Thursday, and on Friday she was back in New Jersey. Gone. I have no respect for that, frankly. If she had health problems, or a family emergency, fine. But just because she didn’t like it? Please. At least wait out another week. Wait out the summer, it’s only six weeks and it’s supposed to be scary and intense! But no. She didn’t bother to call the rest of us, and because of that I’m pretty miffed.
But other than that… All is well. I’m enjoying myself. I learned how to edit on FinalCut today, and it was pretty fun. I just have to remember how to do it for my certification on Monday. I used the word “ho” in the title of my practice edits, so I think I might adopt that as a motif—you know, I’ll use “ho” in every title. That might be pretty damn cool. Heh.
So. I’m studying. And I’ll break tonight for an outdoor movie, maybe for some sex if M is around. Gee. Sounds like a plan, no?
Wish me luck!
