2003-06-16 - 7:56 a.m.
No, Madonna, this is what if feels like for a girl
My body is fucking with me. I’m doing something that it doesn’t like, apparently, so it’s decided to express its displeasure as loud as it can. The lack of sleep is one thing; now I’ve got my period four days early (and a gyno appointment on Tuesday!) and my back is killing me.
I guess I pulled a muscle. I’ve been carrying some unwieldy stuff, and that makes me bend in strange ways, so my back hurts. And I mean, it HURTS. I can’t pack. I have no desire to move anything, but I have to tomorrow (I have no choice), so I’ve started treating it as aggressively as I can. Ibuprofen, ice packs, sitting up… I even put the Hitachi to it, and that felt great after a bit, but then the pain came back.
I woke up in the middle of the night (2:45 am, to be exact) with a terrible, twisting pain in my back. The spasms were so bad I couldn’t breathe, but I had taken Excedrin at 11:15, so I couldn’t take anything. After about 15 minutes of repositioning, I decided to say screw it. I ate some cottage cheese to protect my stomach, I popped three Advil and I tried to get back to sleep. It worked.
But, of course, I was up at 6:30. FUCK.
So, I just popped three more Advil, and I’m on the sofa leaning on a bag of ice wrapped in a dish towel. I have all kinds of car-packing to do, but I will wait until about 9:30 to do it. I need to get better NOW. This sucks.
My period has also started in full force. I had cramps last night. I have a slight headache now, which the ibuprofen isn’t helping. Grr.
I’m also panicking. No one wants to pick up my furniture, apparently. I don’t know what I’ll do. I might end up hiring movers or something, just people to take the stuff to Goodwill. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. (However, in a lovely light at the end of the tunnel moment, a darling 3WA-er has offered her husband’s services if I get into a bind. Bless her heart.)
So, a terrible start to a very busy week. I have to comfort myself by saying this will all be done soon and I will be settled in at Syracuse and ready to start my new life. I just have to muddle through until I get there.
